[He doesn’t even think when his foot nudges Steve’s back; it just happens. The fondness of the gesture is almost unrecognizable to him, even though it comes so immediately—so naturally—and a dull ache in his chest stifles the warm feeling his mind tells him should be there but isn’t.
He wants to reach out before the moment slips through his fingers. Again. He wants to recognize what they had been and should still be now. He needs to know if any of it still means anything to Steve, if what he knows isn't a lie and that Steve doesn't just want this side of him, the one everyone counts on being there but not the one he actually is.
Bucky hums the next bar lazily as he watches the top of the pencil dancing in the air as Steve draws. When the following bar passes him by, he turns back to look at the sky.]
He can stuff it. I don’t see what’s so great about that kid.
[While the universe itself is interesting to Bucky, he’s lost on why Harry Potter is considered a hero. Everything Harry does is so predominantly self-serving, which is the complete opposite of what a hero should be. A real hero is willing to give up everything for someone else. Even if that someone doesn't deserve it.
He clenches his jaw briefly before continuing.]
But I’ll watch it if you want.
[Because this is Steve’s choice. Shield or not, Steve is Steve, and Bucky is just his shadow.]
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He wants to reach out before the moment slips through his fingers. Again. He wants to recognize what they had been and should still be now. He needs to know if any of it still means anything to Steve, if what he knows isn't a lie and that Steve doesn't just want this side of him, the one everyone counts on being there but not the one he actually is.
Bucky hums the next bar lazily as he watches the top of the pencil dancing in the air as Steve draws. When the following bar passes him by, he turns back to look at the sky.]
He can stuff it. I don’t see what’s so great about that kid.
[While the universe itself is interesting to Bucky, he’s lost on why Harry Potter is considered a hero. Everything Harry does is so predominantly self-serving, which is the complete opposite of what a hero should be. A real hero is willing to give up everything for someone else. Even if that someone doesn't deserve it.
He clenches his jaw briefly before continuing.]
But I’ll watch it if you want.
[Because this is Steve’s choice. Shield or not, Steve is Steve, and Bucky is just his shadow.]