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James Buchanan Barnes ([personal profile] lefthandfree) wrote2017-09-25 08:02 am
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telepathy;

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 08:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ at some weird hour in the morning, there's a brief broadcast of another part of the forest.

accident or on purpose, who knows. probably a little bit of both because she still sucks at the telepathy thing.
]
precedents: all I need to know is if I have to put pants on or not. (don't drag this out)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 09:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ crap, it actually went through. ]

It's fine. 9S disabled my sensory input around the thing in our chest.

[ the one time she didn't actually mean for it to send, it happens. there's an awkward sort of pause while she figures out what to say next. ]

Didn't know you were awake.

[ there's an apology somewhere in there. ]
precedents: and in a voodoo shop. (this time tomorrow i will be drunk)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 09:40 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Another android, like me.

[ you know, just in case if he ever runs into him. which he might; 9S has always been the curious and helpful type, and no doubt he'd be fascinated with bucky's arm if he ever saw it. ]

Him and 2B... we're from the same earth.
precedents: we're linked now. (we've talked on the toilet)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Number 2, type B. 2B.

[ the presence of humans is probably more jarring than somehow ending up in another world entirely, but. details. ]

Guess so.

[ it might be too soon to consider them friends, but well. they're all they've got here. yorha or no, they stick together. ]
precedents: so i could bitch slap his incredibly sexy face (i wish i was there)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I was a prototype.

[ great. he's probably going to give her some weird nickname or something, huh. ]

It's just a designation. Not a big deal.
precedents: as queso does (honestly wish he pleased me as much)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-19 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
They just needed our data. We weren't meant to be used again.

[ better to keep something buried if you changed the naming system entirely. not that she would really know what goes on in the developmental process. ]

No. [ what's in a name, anyway? pascal, eve, adam. anemone. they all assigned themselves those names, and there's significance behind it. those names must hold some meaning. her old squadron called her no. 2, but that was when she was still a part of yorha. ] No point in giving something a name when it's just gonna be scrapped in the end.
precedents: (chili is not acceptable fuck buddy food)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ you still exist.

she stops walking, footsteps stilling as she processes it: his words, the feeling beneath the guilt and the regret and the loneliness. does she really exist? had she really been living these past few years? all she was doing was go through the motions, the endless fighting and killing, all in the name of vengeance under the guise, the desire to forget--

"you and i must never forget."
"i know."


how much longer will she continue holding on?

"i hope that you can start over, here. i hope that you can find peace."
]

... Sure.
Edited 2017-11-20 00:58 (UTC)
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[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
Not really.

[ she doesn't know what tootsie even is, but whatever. the cut off is strange, though; he sounded like he had more to say. there's confusion on her end of the connection, a brief flicker-flash of concern. ]

Hey.
precedents: so i could bitch slap his incredibly sexy face (i wish i was there)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Watch where you're going.

[ don't broadcast telepathically while walking ok. ]
precedents: that's not true.... is it? (i haven't seen any nudes yet in 2018)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh my god. ]

Hey.

[ a little more urgently this time. also, she is going to find him now, which admittedly doesn't take her very long at all. she might not have the visor like 9S and 2B, but she can still detect his position. ]
precedents: is in front of me at The Wendy's drive-through. Hmmm..... (the domino's delivery guy)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ what the hell is he even doing. did he find something??

she slows her approach, hanging a few feet back to observe. at least he isn't dead.
]
precedents: (chili is not acceptable fuck buddy food)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ it feels strange to be called that instead of her designation; foreign, but not unwelcome. it'll take time to get used to.

but the fact that she even lets herself try to get accustomed to it... that's telling, isn't it?
]

Yeah. What are you doing?
precedents: to disguise the scent of sex and regret off my clothes from last night (attention. i sprayed windex on me)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ she steps closer, hardly making a sound as she crouches next to him. ]

It can't be far from its parents. [ it's a shame she doesn't have 2B's animal befriending abilities, and her lack in animal interaction doesn't really help. sure, she rode boars around a lot, but she had access to feed and they weren't exactly small. ] I don't have anything to lure it out with.
precedents: I don't keep a super keen memory log of dicks honestly. (maybe a little bit i don't know)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ quit doing that. she knows the bushes he's talking about, having seen them a few times while out hunting with the others, and leaves to find them without another word.

a few minutes later, there's another image sent over: a handful of berries cupped in her palm, metal and wiring peeking out from a few scratches on her arm.
]

Found them. Is it still hiding?
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[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
Probably not used to seeing humans around.

[ doesn't that sound familiar?

it takes less time for her to return to him, kicking up a minor breeze before slowing her steps again and crouching next to him. a few berries are placed just outside of the bush's shade in hopes of luring the piglet out.

there's silence for a moment and then the shuffling returns, a brief glimpse of a tiny snout peeking out from beneath the bush.
]
precedents: (rules don't apply to me)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-20 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ A2 watches as he offers the piglet his hand, how it sniffs at his fingers and then at the berries, finally poking the rest of its head out from beneath. she folds her arms over her knees, resting her chin on them as she watches the way bucky's smile widens, how it finally reaches his eyes. ]

Looks like you made a friend.

[ it's said just as quietly, something in her expression softening. meanwhile, the boar has finished the berries, nudging bucky's hand with its snout as if to look for more. ]
Edited 2017-11-20 07:57 (UTC)
precedents: this morning. what a life. (i woke up naked and alone)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-30 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't do much.

[ he's the one who found the piglet in the first place, after all. it still seems hungry so she places the rest of the berries in front of it, movements slow and careful. it's strange to be so close to something so small and fragile; the animals back on her earth were easily twice her size, it's still jarring to see one so young.

its pulse is steady and it seems to be warming up to bucky fairly quickly, having not moved since bucky started petting it.
]

Are you gonna keep it?
precedents: when you smell like bong water and febreeze (chicks dig it)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-30 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
You could visit him. Pretty sure he'd like that.

[ she notices the "we" but doesn't comment on it aside from breathing an amused huff, a smile threatening to pull at the corner of her mouth. ]

Are you trying to say I wouldn't be able to keep him from running?
precedents: i have me (nah i'm not lonely)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-30 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
Wouldn't've bothered me.

[ the waiting, she means. she's not exactly in a hurry for much of anything these days, and learning to have patience isn't difficult when you've already lost everything.

but there's something about that light in his eyes, bright as the stars they watched together on her first night on the island and just as warm, that makes her pause. she starts to see a little now why 9S had ended up with jude the way he did.

instead of answering, she lowers a hand to the piglet, letting it take a moment to sniff at it before she lightly strokes down his snout once with a finger.
]
precedents: we're linked now. (we've talked on the toilet)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-30 09:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ she steadies the piglet as he stumbles against her hand, carefully nudging him back onto his haunches to regain his balance. she can feel his pulse, rabbit quick in his eagerness to explore more, the texture of his hide softer than the coarser ones she'd been used to of the adult boars back on her earth.

but it's that fumble and the curiosity that sparks a flicker of familiarity. she'd seen it before, groups of machine children gathered around pascal and later, even around her, their cries of "big sis" echoing around the forest as they stumbled over their eagerness to play and learn. it feels like it's been ages since then, since she'd deleted pascal's memories of them. but she still remembers, and likely will never forget.

she'd paused in her ministrations and the piglet protests by bumping his snout against her hand again, this time with more purpose. she breathes another amused huff, scratching along his neck instead.
]

Seems like you've spoiled him for attention.
Edited 2017-11-30 09:41 (UTC)
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[personal profile] precedents 2017-11-30 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she shifts to sit on the forest floor next to bucky, long legs splayed in front of her and slightly bent at the knees. the piglet takes the opportunity to make his way between them and she cups his head carefully between her hands.

always wanna make sure everyone feels like they’re important. she wonders who will make sure he feels important too.
]

It's not bad. [ her thumbs run back and forth along the piglet's snout, watching the way it twitches beneath her touch, the way his ears flick to the side. ] Feeling important is a good thing.

[ she thinks, anyway. ]
Edited 2017-11-30 21:08 (UTC)
precedents: to disguise the scent of sex and regret off my clothes from last night (attention. i sprayed windex on me)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-12-23 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's hard not to notice bucky staring, but it doesn't really bother her. she's gotten the same stares since her arrival, in varying degrees of curiosity and unease, and she'd come to accept that. she's different from humans, different from 9S and 2B, even though they were all part of yorha at some point; sometimes she misses it, the feeling of belonging to something. there's nothing left for her to belong to anymore.

she supposes in the end it doesn't really matter. not when she's here, sitting in the forest with bucky, petting a baby boar like it's something they've always done. like it's something normal people do all the time, even if neither of them are normal.
]

... I guess I did. [ doing something that matters. purpose, duty. they're not that different. even if they were expendable, only used for combat data to be implemented in future models, at the very least they had a purpose. ] I knew I was fighting for something.

[ even if it was a lie. ]
precedents: just that you have bad luck when thinking (i'm not saying you're stupid)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-12-24 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ what did she want? the idea of wanting anything is a foreign concept, one that she had never taken the time to consider. they were made for a specific purpose in mind: to gather data, all to perpetuate the lie that they and future generations were given. but at the time, she had a purpose. at the time, she had believed in what she was fighting for. and maybe she didn't make a difference in the end, maybe all of it was pointless, but she is still here. she is still alive, even though she should have died with the rest of them in that tower. ]

No, [ she says eventually, fingers going back to running over the piglet's head, past his ears and along his back. ] It wasn't. Not that it matters anymore.

[ yorha is gone. they have nothing left to return to. ending up on this world was likely the best alternative they've been given. ]

What about you?
precedents: (rules don't apply to me)

[personal profile] precedents 2017-12-24 07:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ she takes a moment to think about it, looking up from the piglet to meet his gaze. ]

... Always want to make sure everyone feels like they’re important, huh.

[ again, she finds herself wondering who will be there to make him feel like he's important. she's certainly seen him doing a lot of that, even in the short amount of time she's known him; he insists she's more than what she is, he gave her a name. it's more than she can say anyone else has done for her.

apparently, piglets aren't exempt from that either.
]

You don't have to. You're not responsible for making people feel that.

[ she wonders if he spends the same amount of time thinking about himself as much as he would for others. she wonders about the difficulties of that, of the burdens he must carry. ]
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12/24

[personal profile] precedents 2017-12-25 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ left on his bed sometime during the day are a few cards. she thought they were funny...

there's no note, but he'll probably be able to tell who they're from.
]